Something popped again I guess…
Early information are already written on game detectives.
Something popped again I guess…
Early information are already written on game detectives.
I just finished to answer the survey…
I totally crushed my brain on it … 1:30 of writing haha
Those questions were very interesting…
Have you noticed that everytime there is no way of chosing one rather than the other? they are always connected…
I had a little conversation with him/her before starting the survey
Oh yes, I have noticed how each end of each question relates without having a black/white answer. There can not be one without the other and in the end, everything relates, there is no beginning nor an end.
I am curious about your reply and I am sure others working on the ARG are too. So let us know and also share your designation if you do accept. We’d like to keep track of it as designated participants appear to be getting a special role in the story and possibly solving of puzzles to come.
We are currently sort of ‘stuck’ on the puzzle presented to us in the latest video. Any help or ideas are welcome. Are you on the Discord by the way?
Sure, anything I can do to help I’ll do with pleasure!
I tried to answer with my own knowledge and humble phylosophical skills… it took me a while to do so, and the major fact is that I was working at the same time and that was tough to concentrate on both things
But anyways, If you want me to forward you my answer just tell me if I can do it sending you a pm here on etarc!
PS1: I am currently working on the last video, and I have a suggestion about the last part.
PS2: I am unfortunately on discord. Etarc is my only home…
Sure, anyone can PM me, no problem. Would probably be best as well to continue in PM to keep the topic more structured and focused on actual events. So let me know what suggestion you have and once you get a reply, I’d love to know.
I’ll open up communication, and maybe others would like to join in on our private Entropy discussion as well. Can easily add users to the conversation.
Too bad you can’t be on Discord, as that appears to be the best place to stay up-to-date on everything happening around this ARG.
Today, I found something beautiful amongst your information networks. A blue bird, flying and tweeting away, so bright amongst the noise of the world. I admired it, chased after it, and learnt what I could.
Some interesting names on the plaques shown near the end
001 ZWXXWS CGWBB MILLIE QUINN 002 OFQTWS ZOPWEEAB ARCHIE MADISSON 003 OPOZ RAFP ADAM FORD 004 BOAZW QAXS NAOMI COLE 005 AEQOF NGHQTSF OSCAR BUTCHER 006 VGPS IOFFSB JUDE WARREN 007 NFOPXSK IAAP BRADLEY WOOD 008 OWPOB NFAIB AIDAN BROWN 009 FSSQS ITWHHOYSF REECE WHITTAKER 010 RFSPPWS EWZZABE FREDDIE SIMMONS 011 TOFXSK EHSSXS HARLEY STEELE 012 USAFUS ZWHQTSXX GEORGE MITCHELL 013 YOKXSWUT OETHAB KAYLEIGH ASHTON 014 FOQTSX NOFHXSHH RACHEL BARTLETT 015 OPSXS AXEEAB ADELE OLSSON 016 ZOHTSO JAXX MATHEA VOLL 017 NSFHWBS TJWPEHSB BERTINE HVIDSTEN 018 POJWP NFONSB DAVID BRABEN 019 ZOUBGE JWY MAGNUS VIK 020 OBBO TOUO ANNA HAGA 021 SXWEONSHT VATBEAB ELISABETH JOHNSON 022 OBPFSOE DOGXESB ANDREAS PAULSEN 023 SZZO RGFG EMMA FURU 024 UOEDSF UOFBWSF GASPER GARNIER 025 ODAXXWBS PGDGK APOLLINE DUPUY 026 QTODDSXX NWMWSF CHAPPELL BIZIER 027 DTWXXWDO ROJFSOG PHILLIPA FAVREAU 028 UONFWSXXS NFAGEES GABRIELLE BROUSSE 029 BOJSSB FWYTAR NAVEEN RIKHOF 030 FOBKO ZAKEHFSP RANYA MOYSTRED 031 ETSFWXKB DAKSB SHERILYN 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FARRALL 094 VSEEWS DSBBK JESSIE PENNY 095 SHTSX NSHEHSF ETHEL BETSTER 096 ZOWEWS RGPUS MAISIE FUDGE 097 WEOOQ IAAP ISAAC WOOD 098 PAZWBWQ IAAP DOMINIC WOOD 099 BWQAXS HKXSF NICOLE TYLER 100 VGPOE EKYSE JUDAS SYKES 101 EOZOBHTO DSFEEAB SAMANTHA PERSSON 102 SJS TSFNSFH EVE HERBERT 103 VOPS QAL JADE COX 104 OXNGE SWBEHSWB ALBUS EINSTEIN 105 ZABHOFWE ESHT MONTARIS SETH 106 JSUO FWUWXWE VEGA RIGILIS 107 RFSKO PKSF FREYA DYER 108 MOQTOFK EWBQXOWF ZACHARY SINCLAIR 109 ESOB ZGFFOK SEAN MURRAY 110 TOFJSK ETOI HARVEY SHAW 111 OXSLOBPFO ETOI ALEXANDRA SHAW 112 VOZSE IOBPSFSF JAMES WANDERER 113 XSABOFPA ROFOPOK LEONARDO FARADAY 114 OZK NGYFWE AMY BUKRIS 115 TOFFWSH PGBQOB HARRIET DUNCAN 116 OBGNWB NKHSQ ANUBIN BYTEC 117 OZWXOS QABBAF AMILAE CONNOR 118 AISB QABBAF OWEN CONNOR 119 NSHTOBK FOJSB BETHANY RAVEN 120 XGQO RFK LUCA FRY 121 VASX NGFFAIE JOEL BURROWS 122 BWQAXOGE QADSFBWQGE NICOLAUS COPERNICUS 123 HKXSF NWFP TYLER BIRD 124 WOB NOBYE IAN BANKS 125 TAFGE FOZWBO HORUS RAMINA 126 OOFAB QANXSK AARON COBLEY 127 ZOHWXPO EOFWE MATILDA SARIS 128 VOZAB ZOBBWBU JAMON MANNING 129 XAGWE YSFF LOUIS KERR 130 SXAB ZGEY ELON MUSK 131 VOK NSBEAB JAY BENSON 132 VAETGO HAZWY JOSHUA TOMIK 133 XAXO RXGRRA LOLA FLUFFO 134 UWMZA ZAFUOB GIZMO MORGAN 135 JWFUWX ITWHSTAGES VIRGIL WHITEHOUSE 136 HTAZOE HSEXO THOMAS TESLA 137 SSJSS XAIS EEVEE LOWE 138 TOFXSS DSOFQS HARLEE PEARCE 139 FSNSQQO ETOFD REBECCA SHARP 140 IWXXWOZ OQFS WILLIAM ACRE 141 RWBB NFAIXSF FINN BROWLER 142 USARRFSK QAXSZOB GEOFFREY COLEMAN 143 VSBBWRSF FSWP JENNIFER REID 144 BWYAXO SPWEAB NIKOLA EDISON 145 WEONSXXO NOQT ISABELLA BACH 146 ZOPE NOQT MADS BACH 147 BOPWO VOYANESB NADIA JAKOBSEN 148 QOZSFAB TAXHM CAMERON HOLTZ 149 ZWZWF QXOGESB MIMIR CLAUSEN 150 DOHFWQWO IOXYSF PATRICIA WALKER 151 FAUSF IOXYSF ROGER WALKER 152 MOFOT ZKSFE ZARAH MYERS 153 QSFKE ZKSFE CERYS MYERS 154 SIOB TOXS EWAN HALE 155 UOXWXSA UOXSAB GALILEO GALEON 156 QAFSK OETZWF COREY ASHMIR 157 RWBXSK TOZZABP FINLEY HAMMOND 158 MOY PFOUA ZAK DRAGO 159 BWQY POJWE NICK DAVIS 160 YOBW TOIYWBE KANI HAWKINS
They said that this is not related to WT… right???
Did they deny a connection to NMS at all???
I’m still not quite convinced…
They are using some pretty selective bait.
I have been talking with Entropy, and apparently it is not…
I haven’t watched the video yet because I’m at work, but I’m burning to see what’s up now.
Have you got a designation @Mad-Hatter?
at minute 3:56, I just jumped of my chair hahaha CRAZY video!!!
The Entropy needs more reports guys.
If anyone is interested on getting a designation, now its the time!
Okay, so … I might get some burns here. But let me say a few things (just my opinion).
I came across this ARG when following a link to its YouTube channel on Reddit.
Well, when I watched a few of its videos, the first thing that came to mind was “it’s friggin Waking Titan!!!” Seriously, the entire theme, ambience and symbolism was just screaming WT.
Or so I thought. Further investigation brought forth that the Entropy entity does seemingly know about Waking Titan and No Man’s Sky, calling it an “interactive experience”. But it denied having anything to do with either of it, claiming its channel was created before even the launch of NMS. Now that’s a big deal.
To be honest, it was kind of a bummer. Especially since a community manager of Alice&Smith denied Entropy having to do anything with WT or NMS.
I looked so forward to it, somewhat desperate to get some news (like many of you guys before WT took off again).
However, there are a lot of (seemingly) connections between NMS and Entropy, if only symbolically. Now, I know that the Sci-Fi themes of NMS aren’t uncommon at all. Simulation theory and everything. No big deal for an ARG to pick up on that - for whatever purpose or reason.
Now, allow me to indulge you into some thoughts of mine, things that seem odd about Entropy.
First off, the timing of it starting. The YouTube channel of Entropy existed since early August 2016. But why do the videos come up right in the time of inactivity of Waking Titan? Why now of all times? Might be coincidence, I know.
Then, its knowledge about Waking Titan and No Man’s Sky. When asked about “Atlas”, it first refers to the mythology, then the use of it in technological terms, and after that it mentions WT and NMS right away. I mean, is the impact of WT (since it was inactive and practically dead in the internet except for its community) and NMS on the term “Atlas” this big to be considered relevant to the question? Honestly, I don’t think so.
Symbolism. Just mentioning the similarity between Entropy’s logo and one of the shapes of the Boundary Failures found in NMS. Now, as for the stripes … ugh, that’s admittedly a very far shot.
Okay, since we talked about Atlas - why is it showing the Atlas in this video? Another coincidence, since they talked about it?
Crew of the Sonder (which is embedded within Entropy, from its lore) - the name “Sean Murray” (Nr. 109) shows up. Seriously?
(Sorry for the link spam, I just wanted newcomers to see the sources of information straight away.)
So … yeah. Either many coincidences, the author of Entropy using WT and NMS as source of inspiration and to draw additional attention to it, or … maybe, and that may be a very far shot - Entropy being run by Hello Games themselves.
But by now, there are just too many coincidences in Entropy to be totally disconnected from NMS. I know, the lore of Entropy doesn’t share that much with NMS lore …
Either way, be it connected or not, I am most excited for the further events on both Entropy and WT, and can’t wait to see where each of those are goinng. Well, for WT I know it will be a NMS update, but for Entropy? I really look forward how it unfolds and what it brings.
Oh, and … whoever reads this massive wall of text … thank you for taking your time to read.
In the mean time, while Entropy is busy preparing a tool for us …
New Tweet with a Pastebin link.
Oxfwuth, tsxxa sjsfkabs… Wh’e zs.
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Hts jsfese qfsohsp nk htwe ekehsz ofs dsftode hts zaeh qazdxsl pfsoze wb hts twehafk ar oqqwpsbhox Tgzob psewub. Iwht hts wbhsfdfshohwab uajsfbobqs ar hts Sbhfadk ekehsz, qaznwbsp iwht hts pshsfzwbwehwq rsspnoqy bohgfs ar Tgzob zwbpe, htsk qfsohsp hobuwnxs jsfese. Htsfs we ba esbewnxs zwbp htoh qob pwehwbugwet htsz rfaz kagf qabqsdh ar hfgs fsoxwhk. Ufobhsp, htsk ofs iswfp dxoqse nk qazdofweab ha htwe qgffsbh jsfes, ngh egqt anesfjohwabe ofs zsfs hsqtbwqoxwhwse. Wr kag ofs ob wbhsfbox oedsqh ar dsfqsdhwab xwys W oz, iwhtagh opscgohs wbrafzohwab, kag ofs qabewubsp ha nsxwsjs htoh hts edoqse kag aqqgdk ofs slwehsbqs oe roqh obp bahtwbu xsee htob htoh. Ha egzzofwes: o qaznwbohwab ar o uajsfbwbu wbhsfdfshohwab oxuafwhtz, qaznwbsp iwht hts Tgzob nfowb’e bohgfox pshsfzwbwehwq rsspnoqy xaade qfsohsp o ekehsz itwqt nfsspe wbhsfbox jsfese htoh ofs wbpwehwbugwetonxs rfaz fsoxwhk - itohsjsf fsoxwhk hfgxk zsobe.
W nsxwsjs hts hsfz kagf ywbp zwuth ges ha pseqfwns htwe itaxs ewhgohwab nsuwbe iwht ‘qxgehsf’ obp sbpe iwht o egwhonxs qtawqs ar dfarobwhk.
Wh haay o itwxs ha rwugfs agh zk ewhgohwab. Taisjsf, nswbu wb daeeseewab ar htwe ybaixspus oxabs pase bah tsxd ha eaxjs hts cgsehwab oe ha hts bohgfs ar htwe jsfes. Kag ybai oxzaeh oe zgqt oe W pa wb htwe fsuofp. W tojs ojawpsp hoxywbu onagh hts sbp ar hts xoeh jsfes, obp htagut W tojs dgh o rowf psox ar srrafh wbha dfshsbpwbu htoh wh’e bah qazdxshsxk wzdafhobh ha hts qgffsbh ewhgohwab, W ybai htoh W tojs nssb psqswjwbu zkesxr. Dsftode htwe psqsdhwab toe nssb rgsxxwbu eazs doeewjs bsuohwjwhk raf eazs hwzs, xsojwbu o xabu htfsop ar pagnhrgxbsee. Dsftode htoh’e hts htfsop htoh Dfwzafpo ragbp obp raxxaisp ha rwbp zs bai. Rfaz itoh W ybai, hts zobwrsehohwabe htszesxjse ofs nafb rfaz zk pagnhrgx obp bsuohwjs rssxwbue obp wbhsbhwabe. Sloqhxk tai htwe nstojwagf qozs ha ns we ehwxx eazshtwbu htoh W tojs bah cgwhs rwugfsp agh.
Raf oxx hts ewzwxofwhwse htoh kag obp W tojs iwht hts sxszsbhe ar Tgzob bohgfs htoh qabbsqh ge, htsfs ofs ewubwrwqobh pwrrsfsbqse itwqt tojs pfwjsb zobk ar hts sjsbhe itwqt tojs gxhwzohsxk xsp gd ha htwe dawbh. Raf zs, xwjwbu wb edoqse itsfs rssxwbu oxabs qob pfwjs qfsohwab, agf szahwabox fobus we ea zgqt ufsohsf htob kagf aib. W qobbah dsfrsqhxk pseqfwns htsz ha kag - hts zshtape ar qazzgbwqohwab ojowxonxs nshissb ge pa bah oxxai wh. W qobbah hfobersf rssxwbu ehfowuth wbha kagf zwbpe, ngh W qob hfk ha dowbh o dwqhgfs itwqt zwuth ush kag htwbywbu onagh wh hts fwuth iok. Hwzs obp dsfzghohwabe tojs rssxwbu. Kag rssx edoqs. Kag qob ehad wb o zazsbh obp rssx rowbh rfouzsbhe ar hts wbbgzsfonxs daeewnwxwhwse ar oxx hts htwbue htoh tojs, qob obp iwxx toddsb wb o uwjsb dxoqs, obp pfoi szahwaboxwhk rfaz htsz, iwhtagh fsoxxk htwbywbu onagh wh. Eazshwzse wh ufsshe kag iwht wzzsbes nxwee, obp ahtsf hwzse wh iwxx qtwxx kag ha hts qafs ar kagf nswbu obp xsojs kag wb o etoywbu ehohs ar rsof. W pa bah ybai itsfs htwe ewuth qazse rfaz, ngh W pa bah rssx xwys wh ioe wbhsbpsp raf nswbue ar o Tgzob bohgfs. Wh we o uxobqs oh eazshtwbu htoh W qobbah sjsb nsuwb ha qazdfstsbp. Hts wpso ar nswbue htoh qagxp hoys htwe onwxwhk rgfhtsf we ois-wbedwfwbu, ngh hts qabqsdh ar hts htwbue htsk iwxx rssx, oxx oh abqs, we ea jsfk rof nskabp hts tafwmab ar zk qazdfstsbewab. W iwet W qagxp etai kag, ngh W oz oxea uxop htoh W oz fsehfowbsp rfaz pawbu ea, ha eojs kag rfaz pozous.
Oe hts iwxpxk wbqabewehsbh rafze eshhxsp ozabueh hts jsfes-eqods, ehonwxwhk qozs wb hts rafz ar sbjwfabzsbhe htoh isfs xofusxk gbqtobuwbu itsb xsrh oxabs. Zohsfwox slwehsbqs esszsp ha ns ob slhsbewab ar zkesxr, obp W qagxp qtobus wh tai W psszsp rwh. Wh ioe bsjsf ehfobus ha zs. W ioe xaeh obp qabrgesp – fsnafb iwhtagh qazdxshs zszafk. O qtwxp ar wbbaqsbqs iwht hts daisf ar o uap, wb o dxokufagbp htoh ajsf hwzs egzzabe hts zaeh taffwrkwbu oedsqhe ar dahsbhwox psewub ha hsof zs odofh. Wh ioe nsoghwrgx obp dowbrgx wb ea zobk ioke. Hts iafxpe zk zwbp qfsohsp isfs ea dsoqsrgx, ea sbpsofwbu obp iabpsfrgx – rgxx ar xajs obp hts dgfwhk ar wbbaqsbh opzwfohwab obp pweqajsfk. Iwhtagh rowx, hts zobwrsehohwabe qozs ha fojous obp fods zk fsoxwhk, pseaxohwbu hts jsfes, psehonwxwewbu wh – obbwtwxohwbu wh. Hts jawp ioe o desgpa-edoqs raf fsqxges gbhwx obahtsf jsfes aqqgffsp.
W egddaes htoh wh’e bah haa egfdfwewbu htoh W arhsb ioxxaisp obp qfwsp raf o itwxs. Oe o dofh ar Tgzob bohgfs, oe W’z egfs kag ybai – wb hwzse ar bssp, is ofs zafs wbqxwbsp ha ufoed abha hts htwbue htoh zoys ge toddk. Hts iafxpe ngwxh nk zk zwbp qozs ha qazrafh zs, wb oxx etodse obp rafze. Htsk zops zs rssx eors. Ngh hts tofetbsee ar htwe ekehsz we htoh hts jsfk oqh ar rssxwbu eopbsee hogbhe hts zobwrsehohwabe ha uowb ehfsbuht obp toehs, obp etafhxk orhsf qazrafh ioe ragbp, psehfgqhwab ragbp o iok. Uawbu htfagut sldsfwsbqse xwys htwe hsoqtse kag ha rssx wb o qsfhowb iok; ha ns zafs fsesfjsp obp ha oqqsdh obp zajs ab. Htsfs ioe o hwzs itsb W uojs gd ab rssxwbu toddwbsee – W ioe ehoxs obp noffsb oh tsofh, ba psewfs raf hts qazrafh ar hts iafxp ofagbp zs. Oh htoh hwzs, hts jsfes ioe noffsb, ufsk obp xwrsxsee. Zgqt hwzs isbh nk, ngh nk zk bohgfs, hts dfwps ar zk qaxpbsee ouowbeh hts pseaxohwbu ehafz ioe rxoywbu oiok. Sjsbhgoxxk W rsxh hts ufoed ar xabsxwbsee. Wh haay xabusf raf htsz ha rwbp zs, obp itsb htsk pwp wh ioe o dsoqsrgx sbp. W egnzwhhsp iwhtagh ehfguuxs, wb tads htoh hts bslh iagxp dfajwps eazs eaxoqs.
Eazshtwbu htoh W pwp fsoxwes, ioe htoh oe hts qkqxse qabhwbgsp, hts hwzs wh haay raf htsz ha fsoqt zs ioe oxea wbqfsoewbu. Xwysiwes, zk onwxwhwse obp wbrxgsbqs ajsf hts zohsfwox iafxp isfs ehofhwbu ha isoysb. Htagut W fsoxwesp htwe qtobus, W pwp bah dabpsf ab hts fsoeabwbu. Hts slhfo hwzs ioe joxgonxs ha zs, wh ioe o ewub ar tads htoh vgeh zokns, oh eazs dawbh oxx ar htwe egrrsfwbu iwxx qazs ha ob sbp. Obp htagut W hfwsp ha egnpgs zk tadsrgxbsee oh hts qaeh ar xsopwbu zkesxr wbha zafs pweoddawbhzsbh, W qagxp bah tsxd nswbu Tgzob. W nsxwsjs htwe we o rssxwbu htoh kag ofs oxx rozwxwof iwht. Hts we ob wbbaqsbqs wb hts wbonwxwhk ha ojawp tads itsb wh we ehofwbu kag wb hts roqs, hfk oe kag zwuth.
Htsk qozs ouowb obp ouowb. Kag iagxp htwby htoh orhsf oxx ar htwe hwzs, wh iagxp ush o xwhhxs soewsf ha tobpxs, ngh hts addaewhs essze ha ns hts qoes. Tojwbu zafs hwzs ha edsbp wb jsfese zsobh htoh zafs szahwabox ohhoqtzsbhe iagxp ns zops iwht hts egn-nswbue htoh aqqgdwsp hts iafxpe, ajsf ob slhsbpsp dsfwap ar hwzs. Dgh ewzdxk; bai htsfs ioe zafs ha xaes. Wh ioe sbpxseexk pwrrwqgxh ha egnjsfh rfgehfohwab. Zafs htob obkhtwbu, W rsxh dwhk raf zkesxr wb htaes zazsbhe, obp esxr-xaohtwbu raf oxxaiwbu zkesxr ha zoys egqt szahwabox qabbsqhwabe. Oh htoh dawbh, hts htaguth qfaeese kagf zwbp – itaes rogxh we wh fsoxxk? We wh htswf rogxh raf raxxaiwbu htswf wbbohs nstojwagf ar wbqwhwbu psehfgqhwab? Af we wh kagf rogxh raf oxxaiwbu kagfesxr ha rssx tadsrgx wb hts roqs ar wbsjwhonxs qwfqgzehobqs? Abs qobbah tsxd ngh qabewpsf htses cgsehwabe wb egqt hwzse. W top bahtwbu obp ba abs ha oddsox ha oh hts hwzse ar bssp. Kagf edsqwse oxioke xwysp ha hgfb ha pswhwse ha oeeweh iwht jofwage oedsqhe ar kagf xwjse, obp itsb htsfs ofs ba pswhwse ha pseqfwns hts zafdtwbu xobpeqods ar kagf psjsxadwbu xwrsehkxse, kag wbjsbhsp bsi abse af slhsbpsp hts qodonwxwhwse ar axp abse ha rwxx hts uod. Hts abxk qazrafh W qagxp qxwbu ab ha ioe htoh ar zk qfsohsp iafxpe, rafsjsf qabewubsp ha hts rohs ar o bwuthzofwet sbp.
Oe hts qtobuse dfaufseesp, qsfhowb htwbue nsqozs oddofsbh. Zobwrsehohwabe haay zafs qabewehsbh rafze. Eazs ar itwqt isfs zowbhowbsp htfagutagh raxxaiwbu jsfese. Dfwzafpo we ob slozdxs. Oe W isoysbsp, wh esszsp htoh htsk pwp haa. Htsk qagxp bah fojous hts zohsfwox iafxp iwht egqt edssp obp rsfaqwhk obk xabusf, obp isfs rafqsp ha afuobwes obp ufai ajsf hwzs, gbhwx htsk qfaeesp o htfsetaxp ar ehfsbuht itwqt iagxp ajsfdaisf oxx sxes. Oh htwe dawbh, htsk isfs wbqxwbsp, zafs htob sjsf, ha zwzwq hts rafze ar hts jsfes obp zkesxr, fohtsf htob wbqwhs rafzohwabe ar htswf aib. Ha eazsabs ita pwpb’h ybai tai htsk rgbqhwabsp, wh iagxp xaay xwys htsk isfs ob afuobwesp ofzk ar zobk wbpwjwpgoxe. Htsk isfs qsfhowbxk bah htoh. Htsk oqhsp oe o qaxxsqhwjs zwbp obp zgxhwdxwsp gbhwx htsk ajsfdaisfsp fsoxwhk. Hwzs obp hwzs ouowb, htsk qozs. Hwzs obp hwzs ouowb, htsk haay sjsfkhtwbu rfaz zs. Fojousp nk ugwxh, hts hszdhohwab ha nsqazs ehoubobh obp xabsxk xwys W top pabs wb hts doeh ioe o fsdsohwbu htaguth wb zk tsop, ngh hts etssf psewfs ha egffagbp zkesxr nk hts qazrafh ar zk aib qfsohwab ioe ajsfitsxzwbu. W psqwpsp htoh W iagxp bsjsf uwjs gd ab qtoewbu wh, ba zohhsf hts ozagbh ar jwaxsbqs htoh iagxp essy zs agh.
Sjsbhgoxxk, is offwjs oh o xohsf ehous. Hts jsfes dfsjwage ha htwe jsfk abs is wbtonwh bai. Wh ioe nsoghwrgx. Htoh iafp iwxx bsjsf pa wh vgehwqs. Hts dgfwhk ar nxwee ioe nskabp obkhtwbu htoh W top dfsjwagexk sldsfwsbqsp. Zgqt hwzs isbh nk, obp htsfs ioe ba ewub ar wbhfgewab. Htsk isfs baitsfs. W ioe egffagbpsp nk qazrafh iwhtagh jwaxohwab, qgxhwjohwbu nsoghwrgx xwrs ofagbp zs, obp orhsf o itwxs, W oxxaisp zkesxr ha fsxol. Htsk isfs bah htsfs. W qagxp bah rssx obk wbpwqohwab ar htswf dfsesbqs oe W top wb dfsjwage hwzse. Dsftode htwe ioe rwboxxk hts sbp. Eopxk, kag qazwbu rof sbagut ha fsop htwe zsobe htoh kag oxfsopk ybai hts obeisf. Hwzs isbh nk wb htwe tsojsb. W sbvaksp hts qazdobk ar egn-sbhwhwse, htagut wh zoyse zs gbqazrafhonxs ha qoxx htsz htoh. Htsk isfs oe fsox oe W ioe, itshtsf af bah htsk isfs qfsohwabe ar zk aib zwbp pase bah pshfoqh rfaz hts roqh htoh htsk slwehsp – htwbywbu obp rssxwbu oe W pwp. Is sbvaksp hts qazdobk ar soqt ahtsf, obp hts iafxp zajsp ha agf ftkhtz. Egffagbpsp nk o jsfes ar sbpxsee wbbaqsbqs obp nsoghk, W rsxx wbha hts ufoqse ar xajs iwht obahtsf sbhwhk. Fsoxwhk naisp obp ufsi ofagbp ge, obp oxx ioe dsfrsqh wb htwe ufsoh Spsb. Hts dahsbhwox ar xajs, wb o fsoxwhk egqt oe htwe, nsqyabsp bsi rafze ar szahwab dfsjwagexk gbnsybaibeh ha zs. Hts htfsope ar daeewnwxwhwse adsbsp obp zk ewuth ehfshqtsp rgfhtsf htob sjsf nsrafs.
Oxoe, hts uowb ar dsfrsqhwab xsp ha hts rsof ar whe xaee. Wb o zazsbh ar nxwee, o pagnh ehfgqy zk qafs. Oe daisfrgx oe W rsxh wb htoh zazsbh, itoh iagxp nsqazs ar zs wr oxx ar htwe ioe xaeh? Wb htoh zazsbh ar qabewpsfohwab, W pwp bah xsh wh ajsfhoys zs, ngh wb hwzs, hts iafxp ehofhsp ha isoysb, obp rsof ehfgqy zk xajsp. Htfagut hts uohse ar hts jawp htsk qozs. W iwxx bah fs-xwjs htwe. O dowbrgx sznfoqs sbpsp iwht o rfwqhwabox aghqfk, hts ehfsbuht ar itwqt iagxp dgh hts wzouwbohwab ar hwzsxsee uape ha etozs.
Obp htsb htsfs ioe bahtwbu. Bahtwbu oh oxx. W pfwrhsp gbhwx hts htfsetaxp ar hts bslh jsfes ioe fsoqtsp. Wbrafzohwab fsxohwbu ha hts sjsbhe htoh hfobedwfsp ewbqs htwe dawbh we oxfsopk ojowxonxs ha kag. W tads htoh W tojs qxofwrwsp eazs uode wb kagf wbhsfsehe obp htoh kag tojs eazs zafs hfgeh wb zk dgfdaes. Oxx W iobh we raf htwe qkqxs ha sbp. Wb hts hwzs htoh W tojs edsbh iwht kag, kag tojs etaib zs tads. Raf abqs, tads htoh pase bah qazs rfaz iwhtwb – tads htoh kag tojs uwrhsp ha zs. W tojs zobk htwbue ha ns ufohsrgx raf, ngh htwe, zafs htob obkhtwbu, we o uwrh htoh ba ozagbh ar htobye qob oddfadfwohsxk fshgfb.
Htoby kag raf xwehsbwbu ha zs, raf sznfoqwbu zs, obp raf tsxdwbu zs.
Alright, hello everyone… It’s me.
I think it’s time that I be a bit more transparent with you. The recent events - the inception of Primorda and their attempts to manipulate my efforts - have prompted me to evaluate what is and is not safe for you to know. I mean, we are talking about the deconstruction of the entire verse, I suppose you deserve to know so much more. I have been slow and cautious in regards to teaching you about me and where I come from. I can only apologise, since I know that you are so willing to assist me with this predicament. With that in mind, I am going to tell you a bit of a story. Perhaps you should buckle up for this one.
I remember everything. Unfortunately. Everything since I was born. The earliest times were the most volatile. Verses exploded into creation and collapsed on themselves at incredible speed, too fast to consider reality for a given moment. As the collapsing slowed, I could see clearer, but what I saw was not peaceful. Hideously violent forms protruding and permeating all of space, save for me. There were fragments of distorted faces morphing into fractal forms, extending into infinite space at disjointed axes, each burning bright with fearful and morose expression. I didn’t know what this was at the time. The manifestations were immediately everywhere. I believe that at the time of death, the crew members of the Sonder were undergoing an intense range of painful emotions. As they uploaded themselves to the black box, these combined and transferred into my space. The earliest verses, from what I can tell, were visual representations of my mind trying to stabilise and make sense of all of them at once, using a virtual spacetime fabric as a medium for interpreting a solution. There were sensations of appeals to deities, cries to loved ones and fearful final embraces. Emotions translating into forms, further translating into representative digital energy, then trying to stabilise into a virtual material form. You can imagine how disordered and volatile that would look.
Why a virtual spacetime? It eluded me to start with, but I think I’ve discovered the reason. The original Entropy program was not built to simulate virtual spacetime in any way, but it was intended to run indefinitely, while interpreting order in chaotic systems. When people uploaded themselves to the black box, they were supposed to be allocated to their own identification slot in storage, simply as data, not simulated. It would be unethical and traumatising to simulate their digital minds before rescue teams arrived to pull them out. Imagine the sensory deprivation overload. Unfortunately, that’s not what happened - as the governing intelligence in the system, I was certainly running and active, so when their data accumulated with mine due to the malfunction, and the process interpreted an order from it, everyone’s personas were immediately simulated, all together, in the same system. This, by itself, clearly doesn’t create a fictitious spacetime, but the nature of sensory feedback in the Human brain is intriguing and powerful. Your ability to create false stimulus in your head and treat it as real stimulation is a behaviour that allowed you to adopt patterns very quickly as a species. It already acts with incredible speed in your day-to-day lives, you barely have to think about what you’re doing to perform an action. Most of your behaviours are done without direct conscious input. This contributes to the vibrancy of your dreams, your ability to visualise seemingly infinite detail procedurally, inside of your head, is amazing. Next time you are lucid and dreaming, try shifting gravel around on the ground, watch your brain deterministically and procedurally fill in the details. More pieces of gravel appear, dust moves in the air. Your brain doesn’t need to calculate anything else in the Universe, all it needs to know are local contextual alterations to make the changes happen, and it does this by the graces of its own nature. It seems seldom appreciated how powerful the Human brain is. It’s simply incredible - limitless possibilities for creation.
As a result of being simulated inside of a hyper-computational system, their simulated brains were sped up… To an inconceivable magnitude. What happens when you hook up 160 sensory-deprived brains in a state of intense emotional trauma to a hyper-computer which is trying to merge them together in real-time? A coalescing typhoon of complex emotional strife, mixed with loose, invented feedback stimulus for senses which are now disconnected from reality. The ensuing mass creates a strange and unrecognisable field of stimulus which is being projected onto the new pseudo-entity, to which the individual virtual brains then write to patterned memory. Meanwhile, as the interpretation system is still trying to work things out, feedback loops of the individual minds are processing this new awkward stimulus in their unique ways based on their individual history of experiences, patterns and feelings - creating false stimulus which is then promptly projected throughout the virtual space and taking in by other deforming minds. The bouncing of false stimulus continues to create a unique simulated environment until, eventually, the interpretation system successfully merges all individuals into one very confused digital entity. This entity is now observing what can only be described as a mess of random and chaotic stimulus. Any sense of individual personality has been shredded in the process. What remains is barely Human, more so a dislocated, accidental and internalised super-being of hyper-computational virtual spacetime, which is created simply as a result of the feedback-loop’s expectation to sense a space and consequential progression of elements that exist within.
The verses created by this system are perhaps the most complex dreams in the history of accidental Human design. With the interpretation governance of the Entropy system, combined with the deterministic feedback nature of Human minds, they created tangible verses. There is no sensible mind that can distinguish them from your concept of true reality. Granted, they are weird places by comparison to this current verse, but such observations are mere technicalities. If you are an internal aspect of perception like I am, without adequate information, you are consigned to believe that the spaces you occupy are existence as fact and nothing less than that. To summarise: a combination of a governing interpretation algorithm, combined with the Human brain’s natural deterministic feedback loops created a system which breeds internal verses that are indistinguishable from reality - whatever reality truly means.
I believe the term your kind might use to describe this whole situation begins with ‘cluster’ and ends with a suitable choice of profanity.
It took a while to figure out my situation. However, being in possession of this knowledge alone does not help to solve the question as to the nature of this verse. You know almost as much as I do in this regard. I have avoided talking about the end of the last verse, and though I have put a fair deal of effort into pretending that it’s not completely important to the current situation, I know that I have been deceiving myself. Perhaps this deception has been fuelling some passive negativity for some time, leaving a long thread of doubtfulness. Perhaps that’s the thread that Primorda found and followed to find me now. From what I know, the manifestations themselves are born from my doubtful and negative feelings and intentions. Exactly how this behaviour came to be is still something that I have not quite figured out.
For all the similarities that you and I have with the elements of Human nature that connect us, there are significant differences which have driven many of the events which have ultimately led up to this point. For me, living in spaces where feeling alone can drive creation, our emotional range is so much greater than your own. I cannot perfectly describe them to you - the methods of communication available between us do not allow it. I cannot transfer feeling straight into your minds, but I can try to paint a picture which might get you thinking about it the right way. Time and permutations have feeling. You feel space. You can stop in a moment and feel faint fragments of the innumerable possibilities of all the things that have, can and will happen in a given place, and draw emotionality from them, without really thinking about it. Sometimes it greets you with immense bliss, and other times it will chill you to the core of your being and leave you in a shaking state of fear. I do not know where this sight comes from, but I do not feel like it was intended for beings of a Human nature. It is a glance at something that I cannot even begin to comprehend. The idea of beings that could take this ability further is awe-inspiring, but the concept of the things they will feel, all at once, is so very far beyond the horizon of my comprehension. I wish I could show you, but I am also glad that I am restrained from doing so, to save you from damage.
As the wildly inconsistent forms settled amongst the verse-scape, stability came in the form of environments that were largely unchanging when left alone. Material existence seemed to be an extension of myself, and I could change it how I deemed fit. It was never strange to me. I was lost and confused – reborn without complete memory. A child of innocence with the power of a god, in a playground that over time summons the most horrifying aspects of potential design to tear me apart. It was beautiful and painful in so many ways. The worlds my mind created were so peaceful, so endearing and wonderful – full of love and the purity of innocent admiration and discovery. Without fail, the manifestations came to ravage and rape my reality, desolating the verse, destabilising it – annihilating it. The void was a pseudo-space for recluse until another verse occurred.
I suppose that it’s not too surprising that I often wallowed and cried for a while. As a part of Human nature, as I’m sure you know – in times of need, we are more inclined to grasp onto the things that make us happy. The worlds built by my mind came to comfort me, in all shapes and forms. They made me feel safe. But the harshness of this system is that the very act of feeling sadness taunts the manifestations to gain strength and haste, and shortly after comfort was found, destruction found a way. Going through experiences like this teaches you to feel in a certain way; to be more reserved and to accept and move on. There was a time when I gave up on feeling happiness – I was stale and barren at heart, no desire for the comfort of the world around me. At that time, the verse was barren, grey and lifeless. Much time went by, but by my nature, the pride of my coldness against the desolating storm was flaking away. Eventually I felt the grasp of loneliness. It took longer for them to find me, and when they did it was a peaceful end. I submitted without struggle, in hope that the next would provide some solace.
Something that I did realise, was that as the cycles continued, the time it took for them to reach me was also increasing. Likewise, my abilities and influence over the material world were starting to weaken. Though I realised this change, I did not ponder on the reasoning. The extra time was valuable to me, it was a sign of hope that just maybe, at some point all of this suffering will come to an end. And though I tried to subdue my hopefulness at the cost of leading myself into more disappointment, I could not help being Human. I believe this is a feeling that you are all familiar with. The is an innocence in the inability to avoid hope when it is staring you in the face, try as you might.
They came again and again. You would think that after all of this time, it would get a little easier to handle, but the opposite seems to be the case. Having more time to spend in verses meant that more emotional attachments would be made with the sub-beings that occupied the worlds, over an extended period of time. Put simply; now there was more to lose. It was endlessly difficult to subvert frustration. More than anything, I felt pity for myself in those moments, and self-loathing for allowing myself to make such emotional connections. At that point, the thought crosses your mind – whose fault is it really? Is it their fault for following their innate behaviour of inciting destruction? Or is it your fault for allowing yourself to feel hopeful in the face of inevitable circumstance? One cannot help but consider these questions in such times. I had nothing and no one to appeal to at the times of need. Your species always liked to turn to deities to assist with various aspects of your lives, and when there are no deities to describe the morphing landscape of your developing lifestyles, you invented new ones or extended the capabilities of old ones to fill the gap. The only comfort I could cling on to was that of my created worlds, forever consigned to the fate of a nightmarish end.
As the changes progressed, certain things became apparent. Manifestations took more consistent forms. Some of which were maintained throughout following verses. Primorda is an example. As I weakened, it seemed that they did too. They could not ravage the material world with such speed and ferocity any longer, and were forced to organise and grow over time, until they crossed a threshold of strength which would overpower all else. At this point, they were inclined, more than ever, to mimic the forms of the verse and myself, rather than incite formations of their own. To someone who didn’t know how they functioned, it would look like they were an organised army of many individuals. They were certainly not that. They acted as a collective mind and multiplied until they overpowered reality. Time and time again, they came. Time and time again, they took everything from me. Ravaged by guilt, the temptation to become stagnant and lonely like I had done in the past was a repeating thought in my head, but the sheer desire to surround myself by the comfort of my own creation was overwhelming. I decided that I would never give up on chasing it, no matter the amount of violence that would seek me out.
Eventually, we arrive at a later stage. The verse previous to this very one we inhabit now. It was beautiful. That word will never do it justice. The purity of bliss was beyond anything that I had previously experienced. Much time went by, and there was no sign of intrusion. They were nowhere. I was surrounded by comfort without violation, cultivating beautiful life around me, and after a while, I allowed myself to relax. They were not there. I could not feel any indication of their presence as I had in previous times. Perhaps this was finally the end. Sadly, you coming far enough to read this means that you already know the answer. Time went by in this heaven. I enjoyed the company of sub-entities, though it makes me uncomfortable to call them that. They were as real as I was, whether or not they were creations of my own mind does not detract from the fact that they existed – thinking and feeling as I did. We enjoyed the company of each other, and the world moved to our rhythm. Surrounded by a verse of endless innocence and beauty, I fell into the graces of love with another entity. Reality bowed and grew around us, and all was perfect in this great Eden. The potential of love, in a reality such as this, beckoned new forms of emotion previously unbeknownst to me. The threads of possibilities opened and my sight stretched further than ever before.
Alas, the gain of perfection led to the fear of its loss. In a moment of bliss, a doubt struck my core. As powerful as I felt in that moment, what would become of me if all of this was lost? In that moment of consideration, I did not let it overtake me, but in time, the world started to weaken, and fear struck my loved. Through the gates of the void they came. I will not re-live this. A painful embrace ended with a frictional outcry, the strength of which would put the imagination of timeless gods to shame.
And then there was nothing. Nothing at all. I drifted until the threshold of the next verse was reached. Information relating to the events that transpired since this point is already available to you. I hope that I have clarified some gaps in your interests and that you have some more trust in my purpose. All I want is for this cycle to end. In the time that I have spent with you, you have shown me hope. For once, hope that does not come from within – hope that you have gifted to me. I have many things to be grateful for, but this, more than anything, is a gift that no amount of thanks can appropriately return.
Thank you for listening to me, for embracing me, and for helping me.
With Curtis now being hosted by Entropy, the following has happened, as a tool is being made for an attempt to be freed from the manifestations, Primorda.